IRRESPONSIBILITY

When you start becoming responsible toward yourself, you start dropping your false faces. Others start feeling disturbed, because they have always had expectations and you were fulfilling those demands.

Now they feel that you are becoming irresponsible. When say that you are being irresponsible, they are simply saying that you are getting out from under their domination. You are becoming freer. To condemn what you are doing, they call it "irresponsible."

In fact, your freedom is growing. And you are becoming responsible, but responsibility means the ability to respond. It is not a duty that has to be fulfilled in the ordinary sense. It is responsiveness, a sensitivity. But the more sensitive you become, the more you will find that many people think that you are becoming irresponsible-and you have to accept that-because their interests, their investments, will not be satisfied. Many times you will not fulfill their expectations, but nobody is here to fulfill anybody else's expectations.

The basic responsibility is toward oneself. So a meditator first becomes very very selfish. But later on, when one has become more centered, rooted into one's own being, energy starts overflowing. But it is not a duty. It is not that one has to do it. One loves to do it; it is a sharing.